Such Is

Such Is

My heart,
The spark-plug for my intellect.

Intellectualizing the trivial,
Passionating the invisible,
Spectrally dancing to the beat of my heart
And another terrible daydream starts.

Seeing my emotions in turmoil,
The terror rises in tattered and frayed
Phrases that choke with hope.
Splattered remains of intestinal fortitude,
Totality of suspense,
Suspended disbelief, I can’t
Stop believing when I should be
Receiving
The smoke signals of the mind.

The signal falls,
The signal fails,
Emotions make another mess
Of intellectual entrails.

Special forces within me building
An army of bleeding vanity,
And the mere sight
Of an angry mob in the light
Cannot overcome this cancer
That clouds my thoughts from within.
Such is my emotional sin.

October 27th, 2009