In Days Of Grey, You

In Days Of Grey, You



In my dreary days of grey,
You appeared
And turned my thoughts from inwards
To outwards and upwards.

Like an angel, you
Turned my mourning into dancing
And set my weary heart to leaping.

Wrapped in an inner cloak
Of my own self-questioning,
The demons in my head
A jury most sequestering,
Then you waltzed in with
A testimony that was true,
I only needed one witness, and
That witness was you.

You freed me from self (doubt),
And you showed me kindness.
Then you shared with me your self,
Both the beauty and your self-perceived blackness.

But now, months have passed,
And I find myself silent
And speechless,
Sometimes very sleepless,
And so lonely without you.

You pushed me aside,
You went back to your life
That made you so miserable
And unhappy,
And all you left me with
Is a pining heart that feels so sappy.

I don’t know how to cope,
Living my life without any hope
That I will ever meet somebody else
As great as you are.
Nobody out there who will know me,
Inside and out,
From near and afar.

So now…
Me,
All alone.
You,
Out there suffering
Because you think you have to.
Us,
Never was, never will be.

Life just doesn’t always
Deal the nicest of hands;
Sometimes, from out of the grey,
She deals from the bottom of the deck,
And we all get screwed.




December 18th, 2008